FF: Blinf Faith act8

["Sam" <shadowmage_draco@xxxxxxx>]

Blind Faith

By

Sam


Act Eight: The visit


Email: shadowmage_draco@xxxxxxx 
Rating: R 
Disclaimer: The characters of BtVS slayer are the property of Joss.  
I am borrowing them for a bit for fun.
Archive: If your archiving any of my others stories then by all means 
take this one if ya want, otherwise just ask and I'll say yes.
Pairing: B/F (getting warmer.) W/T, X/A
Thanks: Special thanx to Coy for not only being a cool beta and 
editor. But for giving way great advise and making sure I don't fall 
of the deep in on this one.
Summery: A reformed Faith is injured and faces an uncertain future 
with her fellow slayer.
Notes: Contains spoilers for season four. Buffy and Faith meet.
Feedback: Feedback is the fuel to please send it as it is most yummy.
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LA?.

Buffy stood next to Tara and Willow in the hospital corridor, she gad 
been on edge every since they and left Sunnydale. When they got to 
LA, they had stopped by Angel's to see if anything had changed with 
Faith, which it hadn't. He had wanted to come with them to the 
hospital but Buffy had put her foot down, this was going to be hard 
enough with out Angel standing over their shoulders.

Buffy looked at Tara and Willow, her eyes pleading for help, "I'm not 
going to be able to do this."

"Buffy, we're here for you," Willow reassured the slayer, "we'll help 
you get through this."

"It's to early, she's probably still asleep, maybe we could come back 
later?"

"It's ten in the morning, I'm pretty sure she's awake by now."

"Lunch, it's almost lunchtime, we could get something to eat then 
come back," Buffy replied, her voice starting to get desperate.

"We can have a late lunch," Tara replied, "You need to do this.

'Yeah, I know?Wait we should get her something, I think I saw a cad 
shop on our way here."

Willow grabbed Buffy's hand, "You're stalling."

"I?I?I?"

"Buffy I'm here, Tara's here?we've got you covered, we're not gonna 
let you get hurt."

"I don't know what to do,"

"Just talk to her."

"I don't know if I can."

"Buffy you can do it, I know you can," Willow replied.

"And if I can'?"

"Then Me and Tara will help you."

Buffy smiled at her two friends, "You guys are the greatest you know."

"Yeah, we know. Now lets go and get this over with," Willow answered.

Buffy nervously followed Willow and Tara into Faith's room, a nurse 
was putting restraints on the brunet and turned around and looked at 
them for a moment before going beck to her task.

You have some visitors Faith so I'll just finished this up and get 
out of here," the nurse replied as she finished putting the restrain 
around Faiths waste. The nurse then walked over to Buffy and he 
others; "She gets scared and gets out of bed without any one around.  
It's not safe for her to try and wonder around without help right 
now, just this morning orderly found her just before she could get 
the door to the stairwell open."

"The stairs," asked Willow, trying to keep her excitement over the 
idea of a Blind Faith trying to go down stairs to a minim.

"Yeah she had a nightmare, that someone was coming to get her, so she 
tried to get away," The nurse replied for a moment, "Don't worry 
nightmares are normal for someone whose been through something as 
traumatic as losing their sight. The only reason we restrained her 
is so we can't wonder off on her own, she could hurt herself. She's 
gonna be Okay."

Faith had her fist nervously clenched around the restraining strap.  
She hated it when she didn't know who was in the room with her, it 
cold be anyone. What if a vamp came, or the council, or just some 
nut. She could feel herself starting to break out into a cold sweat 
as the footsteps of her visitors grew closer. <Who's there, what do 
you want with me, Why the hell can't I fuckin' see you! >

Willow took a chair next to Faiths bed and motioned for Tara and 
Buffy to do the same, "Faith, it's me?Willow."

"Red, you came back," a rather relieved Faith replied.

"I said I would, didn't I?"

"Yeah, I didn't think you meant it though."

"I did," replied Willow, "And I didn't come alone."

"You didn't."

"No, I didn't"

<Maybe she brought Buffy with her, no that's not possible there is no 
way B would come see me, not after everything I did>.

"Hi Faith," Tara replied, holding tightly onto Willow's hand.

"Tara, right," Faith responded, hoping she got Willow's girlfriend's 
name right.

"That's me."

<Yeah what was I thinking, of course B's not gonna come>, "I'm glad 
you guys could make it."

The room filled with a uneasy silence as Willow and Tara waited for 
Buffy to speak up, but the slayer just sat their staring at Faith 
lost in her own thought, <She looks so helpless, and she seems to be 
really glad that Willow and Tara came to see her. <Get a grip on 
yourself Summers, you can't afford this, you can't let her back in, 
not after what she did, you just can't risk it again>.

Willow and Tara both turned to Buffy and looked at her, their 
expressions saying well go ahead and speak already.

<God what if they came here to let me know that they changed their 
minds and decide they can't forgive me. Can't say I blame them, I 
don't deserve it but it did feel good to her Red say it. >.
Willow leaned over to Buffy and whispered, "Say something already."

<God, I don't know if I can do this>, "I don't know if I can," Buffy 
faintly replied.

"Buffy, you can do this, I know you can," Willow whispered in the 
slayers ear.

<They're whispering, whispering is not a good thing. I think I heard 
Red mention B. Oh my God what if something happened to B.  
Something's happen to B and they came here to tell me. What was it, 
is she Okay?why aren't they saying anything, what's the hell is going 
o?Where's B, is she Okay>.

Buffy could feel her heart beating a mile a minute, every second that 
ticked by seemed like an eternity as she sat their watching Faith, 
<She looks so helpless like this, they way she's lying there, her 
hair falling against the pillow?Damn Buffy don't do this, don't let 
this happen, not this time>,  

Buffy to several deep breaths, <You can do this, all you have to do 
is say Hi, you can do this>, "Faith"

"B?" <God?Oh God, she came. She actually came>.

"Yeah, it's me."

<Oh my I can't breath, I got to breath?what do I say, I rehearsed 
this so many times but I don't know what to say>.

<God Buffy come say something intelligent for Christ sake>.

"B, I?I", <God why is this so Fuckin' hard, it wasn't this hard to 
tell Red I was sorry, but this isn't red is it, it's B and that makes 
everything different>, "I'm?"

<Oh my what she gonna say, is she gonna say she's sorry, ask me to 
forgive her. Please don't say it, I'm not ready for this>.

"B, I don't know how to say this and I know you're probably not gonna 
believe me but I'm?sorry," faith sobbed.

Buffs sat there in her chair staring at Faith, unable to speak, 
<Damn, why did she have to say that, why does she have to look like 
she means it. God I'm not ready for this, what the hell do I do now>.

Faith was openly crying as she continued to speak, "B I know you 
probably hate me but that's OK I deserve that. I-if I could take 
back?. everything I would. God B I never wanted to hurt you, I don't 
even know why I did everything I did, guess I was pretty screwed up 
in the head?I?.I?.I just want to let you know I'm sorry."

"Faith, I don't hate you," Buffy meekly replied.

"You don't?"

"No, but I?"

"Can't forgive me," Faith replied lowering her head in defeat.

Willow and Tara found themselves sitting on the edge of her seat, 
staring at Buffy as the petite slayer thought about her answer.

<I can't do this not now, why the hell did she have to go change, why 
the hell is this happening>, :I'll forgive you, it's just I'm not 
ready for this, everything's so confusing?Faith I need time."

<Did she say she would eventually forgive me, maybe there's hope, 
> "Take all the time you need B, <lease just don't take to long, I 
don't know how long I can stand it knowing that your gonna forgive me 
one of these days>.

"Thanks," Buffy replied getting up out of her chairs and heading out 
of her room.

Willow gave Faith's hand a tight squeeze, "We'll talk to her."

"No," Faith replied, "please don't, I don't even deserve her coming 
here, not after what I did to her."

"Faith you've changed, I know that and so does Buffy."

"It's not that simple Red."

"I know, she told us everything."

"She did," Faith gasped, "and you still came?"

"Yeah we did. Look I know you made lots of bad mistakes and Buffy 
didn't deserve the way you treated her, but that's in the past."

Fresh tears began to roll down Faith's cheeks, "I don't understand, 
why are you doing this for me."

"I'm doing this for both of you, there is no way either one of you 
are going to be able to get on with your lives if you keep holding on 
to the past.

"Thanks Red."

"Not a problem, I'll see you in a few weeks."

You mean that," Faith exclaimed.

"Sure do, maybe I can talk some since into Buffy and you guys can 
move on."

"Thanks," <but what if I don't want to move on, what if I want 
another chance with B. But that's just dreamin' isn't it, she's 
already given me to many chances, and I've blown them all>.

TBC?