How Long For Love 1/?

["Leanne de Plater" <ldplater@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx>]

Title:	How Long For Love
Author: Leanne
Disclaimer: All characters belong to Joss Whedon and Mutant Enemy. They are
not mine.
Summary: Buffy and Willow both realise they want each other. Some hot f/f
action. There is no Tara in the world below - sorry!

Please be kind.. This is my very first fic.



Willow woke in her dorm room bed like she had everyday since Buffy and her
had decided to be roomies. She'd open her eyes look over to the gorgeous
blond that slept soundly on the other side of their room. She was always so
close, but still so far away from her. She wanted to tell the slayer how
much she wanted her, loved her, yearned for her. But how could she ever
consider jeopardizing their powerful friendship by telling Buffy that she
loved her. Having Buffy slam the door on their friendship would be more than
she would be able to live with. At least she had this wonderful woman as a
friend, at least she had that much. So she had kept quiet and decided to
live with her inner turmoil. She must never know how I feel.

Buffy started to stir from her sleep. Willow was quick to avert her gaze,
she had been caught starring at the blond so many times before. Willow was
sure Buffy knew something was amiss with her. Buffy was so sure Willow must
have known how she felt about the exquisite redhead. She found it very
difficult to keep her eyes and hands to herself, especially now they were
rooming together. If she only had the balls to tell Willow that she had
fallen in love with her. Balls, she thought to herself, how ironic. She had
thought about telling her, going through the scenario a million times in her
head. She could never let herself imagine the outcome. Would Willow run from
her, run to her, leave her? All Buffy knew was that she was getting sick and
tired of keeping her feelings locked inside. Working along side her during
the Hellmouth's fury, how she had saved the life of her best friend time and
time again, and everytime wanting to kiss her so passionately she felt like
she would explode from the longing. It was the times when Willow was in
mortal danger that Buffy felt the love and lust that belonged to her dream
lover the most.

Buffy knew Willow was watching her. Was she making sure I wasn't going to
jump her bones in the middle of the night? Buffy thought to herself. She
had to talk to her friend. She HAD to talk to her today. Today, today is
Saturday she thought - excellent.

"Hey Will" Buffy yawned
"Morning Buffy" Willow replied
"You feeling up to a big yummy breakfast at the local this morning?" She
asked.
"Mmm, sounds great, I'm starved"
"Me too, all that slaying I guess"

While Buffy was in the shower she was thinking that today was going to be
the day and whatever happened at the end of their breakfast she would have
told Willow everything. She could almost feel the relief flowing off her and
down into the shower drain. At the end of today she would know if she still
had a friend or not. One way or the other, closure was a good thing right!
Right?

When both of them were ready they headed off to the nearest off campus café.
Buffy's appetite was beginning to fade, the butterflies in her stomach were
helping with that. The women sat at their favorite table, they had been
eating here a lot since starting college, and placed their orders. Buffy
just didn't know where or how to start the confession to the goddess that
was sitting across the table from her. All she knew was if she didn't tell
Willow today, she would die. She waited for a break in their Saturday
morning chit chat before she bit the bullet.

"Willow, I need to tell you something but I don't know how."
"What's up Buff? You know you can tell me anything."
Buffy thought, can she make this any more difficult for me? God, those
luscious green eyes, just looking at me, she makes my heart melt. I have
never come out before, God, I don't even know if I'm a lesbian, bisexual or
if Willow is the only Woman I will ever want to make love to.
"Yea, I know that Will, but that doesn't make this any easier."
"Just take your time, neither of us have an elsewhere to be today, I'm here,
I'm listening." Oh Goddess, Willow thought. She knows and she's going to
leave me. I should have kept my eyes to myself. Watched where I was looking.
She knows. How am I going to tell her I couldn't help it?
"Thanks, I just need to get this out in one go. I have no idea how it is
going to sound, but please let me finish before you do - say anything. OK?"
"You've got my OK Buffy" She knows Willow thought. Her palms starting to
sweat.
"This was so much easier in my head Willow." Just say it and get it over and
done with, Willow pleaded silently.
"I've fallen in love with you," There, she had actually said it. Buffy felt
the tension build and release at the same time, waiting for what was to come
next. She was staring into Willows' eyes when she continued. Her heart
beating so loud and fast, she was sure the cook in the kitchen could hear
it.
"I want you so much but I would never do anything that would hurt you. I
can't do this anymore I had to tell you - I am so sorry!"
Willow couldn't let Buffy finish. She had so wanted to tell Buffy everything
that she had just heard. Everytime she tried, she just lost it completely.
"Sorry! Sorry for what? Do you know how long I have wanted to hear that from
you, to tell you?"
"I thought you would hate me."
"I could never hate you Buffy"
"Will, I didn't want to say anything to you, but I had to. Sharing a room
with you and not being able to touch you, tell you things, was driving me
insane. My head wanted to do the messy exploding thing"
Willow just started laughing.
"What's up Will"
"Us, we both have the same thing for each other but didn't, couldn't tell
the other. How about that for a couple of friends?"
Willow reached over the table and took her friends' hands in her own.
"All of a sudden I'm not so hungry now - for food anyway. Let's go home" was
all Willow could say to stop herself jumping up and wrapping her legs around
Buffys' waist there and then.
"Cool" Buffy said, not even trying to wipe the enormous smile from her face.

They paid the bill for the unseen breakfast. On their way back to the dorm,
they talked about the whole denial of emotions thing, the wanting to ravage
each other and never daring to talk about it with the other. They were both
protecting one another's feelings. It all seemed so stupid to them now. They
were so fortunate that Buffy had decided to tell Willow. Otherwise who knew
how long the whole avoiding the issue thing would have gone on for.

As they walked inside, Willow closed the door, turned around and they were
both facing each other, bodies trembling with anticipation. Both had made
love to each other before, always inside their heads. Now it was time for
the next natural progression. Bed. It didn't really matter to either of them
if they ended up on the floor though. There were major pent up sexual
energies just waiting to be unleashed. And Heaven help the poor soul who
stood in their way.

Buffy moved closer to Willow, Willow moved closer to Buffy. They both leant
into each other and kissed. The kiss was the most tender thing Buffy had
ever experienced. Willows lips were sensuous, loving, inviting and capable.
Her arms slid around Willows' waist and her hands rested on her bottom.
Willow had hers arms wrapped around Buffy's waist. They pulled each other
tighter. Their lips parted, they tasted each other for the first time. Their
tongues entwined. They were in love. Their first kiss lasted forever, when
they broke if off, Buffy couldn't believe what she had just felt. She was
kissing Willow, her Willow. They looked at each other and they both knew
that what they were doing was so right. All inhibitions started flowing off
them, all insecurities and slightest self doubts - all gone. They both knew
this is what they had both been dreaming of.

Neither of them had been with a woman before. But what they were doing
seemed so natural. Buffy leaned in for another kiss, she started running her
hands over Willow's back. Her breathing was getting heavier, she wanted
Willow so bad. The ache for Willow was screaming to her. She untucked
Willow's top and slid her hand over Willows bare back. Buffy couldn't
believe what she was feeling. Willow's skin was so soft.
"Is this OK Willow, do you want me to stop, slow down, take our time?" Buffy
asked.
"Oh, Buffy, this is SO OK, I don't want you to ever stop or slow down, I've
waited too long for this"
'We've waited Will" Buffy corrected her lover.
She started to lift Willow's top up over her head. Stopping briefly to get
around their joined lips. Buffy flung the discarded top onto the floor. She
had seen Willow in her bra before, but never been able to act out her
desires. Willow had taken Buffy's top off too and was now starting to undo
her bra. They were taking off each other's bras! They stood before each
other topless. Buffy was taken back by Willows' supple breasts. She started
kissing Willow again, moving her hand to the redheads' right breast. It felt
so different from her own. So different, and yet so similar. The feel of one
breast made her want more. She moved her free hand up to Willow's left
breast. She started kissing Willow's neck, moving down her chest, she took
Willows' breast into her mouth, Willow moaned with instant pleasure. Buffy
was caressing the breast with her mouth, with her tongue. Now she knew why
males were so obsessed with tits. Buffy loved Willow's. She gently grabbed
both in her hands, brought them together and went from one to the other with
her tongue. Sucking on the darkened nipples, exploring the whole area with
her mouth. She felt Willow's nipples grow and harden in her mouth. Buffy
couldn't believe what she was feeling. She wanted to devour Willow. She left
the boobs alone for a moment and returned her mouth to Willows'. This time
their kiss was more intense than before - if that was possible. She left
Willow's mouth to return her attention to Willows' wondrous boobs. Licking,
flicking, circling, sucking, she never thought she would ever be doing this
to best friend. She amazed herself at her competency.

Willow's legs had almost given up the ghost, she moved her lover and herself
over to her bed. She laid down and just enjoyed the feeling Buffy was giving
her. Oz had never made her feel this good. Willow wanted to touch Buffy.

To Be Continued...