Fic: Another Chance: All or Nothing (1/1)

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Title: All or Nothing
Author: Inell
Email: Inell@xxxxxxx
Disclaimer: Joss owns them all
Distribution: Kiss or Kill. Permission-take. Want-ask.
Rating: R
Pairing: Willow/Buffy and Willow/Faith
Final part of Another Chance series. Follows Difficult Choices


ALL OR NOTHING (1/1)


"Why would she want to meet us out here?" Faith asked, her dark eyes sweeping 
over the many students that were wandering by on their way to class or back 
to the dorms.

"Probably figures meeting out here would prevent us from making a scene," 
Buffy said, knowing Willow well enough to understand the redhead's way of 
thinking.

Faith snorted, "Yeah, that sounds like Red. Little does she know we'd cause a 
scene in the middle of Dodger Stadium."

"There will be no scenes," Buffy warned her fellow slayer. "Remember, we 
discussed this."

"Yeah, yeah, yeah," Faith said with a sigh. "But, if she tells us to both 
fuck off, don't think I'm going to take it all nice and easy. I can lose her 
to you cause you love her as much, if not more, than I do. But, I can't lose 
her to no one. I won't give her up that easy."

"You and me both," Buffy said under her breath. She and Faith had spent hours 
just talking over the previous day and a half that Willow had kept them 
waiting. They had been good, not calling the redhead or even going to the 
dorm. They had decided to give her the time she had said she needed. Of 
course, when the phone had rang the night before both girls had practically 
been jumping up and down when Willow had said she wanted to meet them both in 
the commons at noon the next day. They had actually begun a tentative 
friendship of sorts, but Buffy feared that Willow's decision would change it 
all. "Where is she?"

"I'm here," Willow said softly causing both girls to turn and face her. She 
blushed slightly at the sight of both the slayers. These two beautiful, 
magnificent women claimed to love her. Even now their eyes softened as they 
looked at her causing tremors to run over her skin. "Sorry, my history Prof 
kept us late to finish a lecture."

"We just got here," Buffy lied, figuring that Willow didn't need to know that 
she and Faith had been there since a little after eleven.

"Yeah, haven't been here long at all," Faith said, following Buffy's lead. 
She smiled slightly as she looked at the redhead, taking in the brown jeans 
and orange shirt that fit the girl rather well. "You look so pretty."

Willow felt her face flame red again at Faith's words, the knot in her 
stomach tightening. "Thanks," she stuttered.

"You always look beautiful," Buffy said quietly, knowing that the girl was 
nervous.

"Guys," Willow said, squirming slightly as both girls looked at her. "The 
reason you're both here...."

"It's OK," Buffy said softly, "you don't have to do this. It wasn't really 
nice of us to gang up on you like that....to tell you all that stuff when 
you're trying to deal with everything else."

"I know I don't have to," Willow said, "but I want to." "I'm staying here," 
Faith suddenly spoke up. "I'm going to start patrolling again and everything."

"That's great," Willow smiled a sincere smile. "I know you can do it, Faith. 
If anyone can, you can."

"Ya think?" Faith smiled at the redhead's confidence in her.

"Mom has agreed to let Faith stay at the house," Buffy piped in. She had 
spent over an hour talking to her Mom, explaining about Faith, confessing her 
secret affection for Willow. She still felt so proud of her Mom for simply 
hugging her and telling her she loved her when she had confessed that she was 
in love with another woman. Of course, after having dealt with Buffy being 
the slayer, she assumed that Joyce had found it much easier dealing with her 
daughter being bisexual.

"I'm gonna start helping her at the gallery during the day, sort of work for 
room and board," Faith explained. Ever since that plan had been reached, she 
had felt like a weight had lifted from her shoulders. She honestly thought 
that she might make it this time.

"I'm so proud of you," Willow said softly, her eyes moving to Buffy and 
seeing the look on the blonde's face. "Of both of you. For letting the past 
stay where it belongs."

"Well, no use holding a grudge is there?" Buffy asked quietly, not adding 
that she figured Willow would choose the brunette and that it had entirely 
been selfish on her part for her to help Faith in hopes of keeping Willow in 
her life.

"Actually, this helps more than you know," Willow said as she sat down. "You 
see, I've done a lot of thinking. Hell, it seems all I've done lately is 
think. I'm tired of thinking."

"I'm sorry," Faith said, having never intended to hurt the redhead.

"Not your fault," Willow said with a smile. "I always think too much. Anyway, 
I've made a decision. I honestly don't know if either of you is going to like 
it, but I'm done thinking."

"We agreed to respect your choice," Buffy said, her heart beating rapidly as 
she waited to hear the words that were going to change her life, either for 
good or worse.

"Red, c'mon," Faith groaned, "quit stalling."

"Impatient as always," Willow said with a soft smile, remembering their night 
together.

"Willow," Buffy warned, beginning to not care that they were in the commons 
during the middle of the day. She was going to scream.

"OK, OK," Willow said with a shy smile. "You see, I'm done with thinking. 
Life is too short to think so much, you know. I'm ready to make some 
decisions based on feelings."

"And?" Faith asked, glancing at Buffy with a confused look.

"Buffy, you're my best friend," Willow began, watching her friend's pretty 
face fall, "I love you. I honestly don't want to even think about a future 
without you in my life. And Faith, well, I know I was a bitch to you when you 
first came here and I'm sorry. I never gave you a chance. That night, the 
words that were spoken were yours. It was you that I started to fall in love 
with, your touch and knowledge that excited me so much. I think I could love 
you, if you let me get to know the real you."

"What are you saying?" Buffy asked, not following the redhead's logic.

"That I've made up my mind," Willow said, taking a deep breath. This was 
going to take more courage than anything else she had ever done. She looked 
at both girls, staring into their eyes for several moments before looking at 
the other. Finally, she let out her breath, "All or nothing."

"What?" Faith asked.

"All or nothing?" Buffy repeated with a frown.

Willow nodded, "I can't live without you, Buffy, but I think I could also 
love Faith. Hell, I already pretty much do."

"You want us both," Faith said, her eyes widening slightly as she slowly 
started to smile. "Kind of greedy, eh, Red?"

"If we don't agree to share, neither of us gets you, right?" Buffy asked, not 
believing that her sweet little Willow was saying such a thing.

"Right," Willow nodded. "I couldn't live with just one of you. I know it 
isn't fair of me to ask you both to do this, but I can't choose. You both 
mean so much to me, in different ways. I can't give one up for the other. If 
you can't, well, I'll understand and I won't hold it against you. I do hope 
we could still be friends, but I doubt that."

"Wills, are you sure?" Buffy had to know. "I mean, I'm OK with it if Faith 
is. It might be a bit strange at first, but what relationship isn't? I just 
want to know that you know what you're getting into."

"B's right," Faith said quietly. "One slayer is bad enough, but two? Never 
thought you were the insane one, Red."

"I think I can handle it," Willow said with a smile. "If you both can."

"Who am I to turn down kinky sex?" Faith asked with a large smile.

"Faith!" Buffy said, her face flaming. "We're not just talking about sex 
here."

"Oh, I know that," Faith said. "Trust me, I know that. We're talking about a 
future here. A future with someone I could call a friend and someone that I 
love. I don't really see much of a question."

"Buffy?" Willow asked quietly, knowing her blonde friend was still dealing 
with the idea that she loved another girl much less about to maybe enter into 
a triangle relationship with yet another girl that used to be a former enemy. 
She couldn't even begin to deal with the melodrama that was her life. It 
seemed unreal, yet so right in a way.

"Willow, I love you," Buffy said with a smile. "It took me years to realize 
that. Only after I lost you, did I begin to understand. I can't lose you 
again. I won't make any promises that this will be easy for me. I mean, Faith 
and I don't have the strongest of pasts, but we both love you. We're both 
slayers. That gives us probably two to three more years at best until we 
retire or are killed. I can't even pretend to want to spend that time with 
anyone but you. I can handle Faith if I get you in the bargain."

"Thanks, B," Faith said with a smile. "And we'll see about you handling me," 
she added with a wink.

"What have I done?" Willow asked with a large smile as the slayers began 
taunt each other with laughter.

"C'mon, honey," Buffy said, holding her hand to Willow. "Let's go get some 
lunch and talk."

"But no thinking," Faith promised as she took the redhead's other hand. 
"There's enough time for thinking later."

"Food sounds good," Willow said, walking between her girlfriends. She smiled 
at that thought, wondering how jealous Xander was going to be that she got 
not one but both slayers. She laughed, "And we start deciding how we're going 
to break the news of our new relationship to the others."

"I vote for letting them find us fucking in the cemetery," Faith said with a 
laugh.

"Oh, that's great," Buffy said, rolling her eyes. She looked at Willow and 
continued, "We can always arrange a meeting and let them know all at once. 
Deal with it and let them know we're serious."

"Yeah, we should just tell them next time we meet for research," Willow said 
with a smile, "though I do think Faith's idea has merits too."

"Enough about the sex," Buffy said with a whine.

"Ah, poor wittle Buffy feels left out," Faith said with a smile. "It's OK, 
hon. We'll make sure you're never left out again."

"Promises, promises," Buffy said with a wicked smile.

"Goddess, I do love you guys," Willow said with a satisfied smile.

"Love you too, baby," Faith said as she leaned over and kissed the redhead 
swiftly.

Buffy leaned forward and kissed Willow gently, tasting the redhead for the 
first time. She pulled back, smiling, "I love you, Will. Now, let's eat."

Willow smiled as she caught the surprised looks from some of their 
classmates. Oh well, she was going to have to get used to dealing with that. 
She smiled brightly at them and winked as she continued to walk between Faith 
and Buffy. Her life finally felt complete.




THE END