Dear Cordelia nc17

["vampred5" <vampred5@xxxxxxxxx>]

This is the way it's in my Word. Sorry if it's a bit hard to read, 
but that's the way the other lists like it. This is a prequel to 
Seduction of a Slayer.

Willow's Letters
#6 Dear Cordelia
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nc17
Joss' stuff.
A letter to Queen C, from Will.
Distribution: The usuals, others just ask.
Spoilers: Mentions things from any season of Buffy or Angel. Willow 
toward end of season 6.


Dear Cordelia,
Guess who? That's right, it's me, Willow. Bet you're surprised to 
hear from me, huh? I mean, with all the excitement going on here, in 
good ol' Sunny-D. I know that you and the, L.A. gang are aware of my 
new, status. Yep! I am the new big bad! Funny, isn't it? Little 
Willow Rosenberg, a big bad. The same little Willow Rosenberg who 
used to hang out in the library all the time, attached to the 
computer. The same little Willow Rosenberg who never had any problem 
finding the softer side of Sears. The same Willow Rosenberg you and 
your snotty friends used to torment on a daily basis. Yep, that's me!
But hey, we all change just a bit don't we? Look at you! Who would 
have ever thought that Cordelia Chase would be helping the helpless? 
I know I sure as shootin' wouldn't have! And me, well, who would have 
ever guessed that I would become a dark mojo mama? I like that, mojo 
mama. Hey, just because you command the powers of darkness, doesn't 
mean ya can't have a catchy nickname! You have one, right? A 
nickname? 
Let me guess, uh, Cora-protector of the innocent? Delia, deliverer 
of justice! Wait, you're probably still using Queen C, right? Never 
mess with a classic that's what I always say. And Queen C is so you. 
Queen - C. Although, I'm thinking maybe we have a difference of 
opinion as to what exactly the C stands for.
Yes, you say Cordelia, duh. I say, cunt. Come on, Cordy, wipe that 
shock off of your overly made up face! This is me here, dark mojo 
mama. I know what's going on out there, in the City of Angels, with 
Angel. You want him. You-want-Angel. 
I must admit, I can see why. He is extremely sexy, with the whole 
mysterious, broody, soul boy thing. Hey, even I have thought about 
how incredible it would feel to ride that pony for a whole night. But 
ya know what, Queen C? They were just thoughts, nothing more, because 
Buffy was in love with him. And ya know, she still is. Despite 
everything that's happened since he left, she's still in love with 
him. She always will be. No matter how many studs she brings into the 
Slayer coral, Angel will always have her heart. And she, will always 
have his. But then, you already know that, don't you?
You look into those deep, dark eyes and you see her there. He says 
her name and everything about him gets all, shiny. Even when the big 
honey looks at a stake, he gets all warm and fuzzy, doesn't he? And 
it eats you up inside, because you know that it will always be that 
way. 
Oh, he will tell you it's the past and the past is just that. He 
may even smile at you in that special way that makes you believe he 
feels the same about you as you do him. Heck, he might even kiss you! 
But in his heart, his lips will always be tasting Buffy. And that 
nice, firm bulge that's pressing against your designer skirt, making 
you wetter than you ever imagined you could be? Not for you, Queen. 
That's the rock of Buffy!
Now, you are probably sitting there, wondering why I even bothered 
to write this. That's easy, to hurt you! Gosh, Cordy, karma much! You 
put me through hell all through school. Now, I am returning the 
favor. Of course, when I put someone through hell, I LITTERALLY do 
just that, one of the perks of the job. Warren found out, although 
there is no hell hell enough for that bastard. He took the most 
precious thing in my life from me. Kinda like you did, years ago, 
with Xander.
No, you didn't kill him. But there was a time, when I almost would 
have rather seen him dead, than with his tongue down your slut 
throat! Thank the goddess for Spike! The day you found us kissing was 
one of my best. Too bad ya didn't die in that fall. But then, if ya 
had of, I wouldn't be able to tell you that you will never have 
Angel. With or without a soul, the only reason he would touch you, 
would be convenience. You're not good enough for him, Cordy. You 
never will be.
Well, gotta run. Havoc to wreck, Slayer's to seduce. Yes, you heard 
right. I'm gonna make her mine, Cordy. Take sweet little Buffy and 
turn her into my dirty little toy. You shouldn't be surprised. I've 
always wanted her. You spent your life walking around like you were 
the only thing worth looking at. You never were too bright, huh 
Cordy? Buffy was always the one. Not you, although I know that's what 
you wanted. Please, Cordelia, no one has THAT much hostility toward 
someone without some sort of passion in there. But don't worry honey. 
After I take care of things here, I'm going to pay you a visit. And 
I'm bringing Buffy. After all, what kind of lover would I be, if I 
didn't give my girl everything she wants? Tell Angel we'll see him 
soon.
Love,
Willow