Fic: learning to live pt 6a

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Author: Jen D
Disclaimer: I don't own just like it.
Rating: G-R and all points between mostly language and violence
Pairing: Willow/other - Willow/ Buffy eventually
Spoilers: Season 6 maybe others somewhere down the road
Summery: Giles brings someone in to help after everything happens in 
season 6. Sorry I suck at this part.
Author notes: I have never written anything before this, so please 
tell me what you think.  



Sara and Giles walked into the rec room to find everyone playing 
pool and talking. Everyone except Willow who was standing to the side 
staring at the floor. Sara noticed she was shaking despite the warm 
fire that Gail had going in the fireplace. Sara walked around the bar 
and grabbed a glass, she mixed a few herbs, and a small shot of 
whiskey and filled the rest with O.J. She walked back around the bar 
and handed the drink to Willow, " it will take some of the shakes 
away", and walked back behind the bar and sat down. 

"Ok, I am ready to start if everyone could have a seat, there
are a 
few things I need to know", Sara said and watched everyone find a 
seat facing her. She watched Willow and had to fight the urge to just 
go over and wrap the red headed witch into a bear hug. `Damn she 
looked so much like Josie' Sara thought taking her gaze off of 
Willow, `I hope Jen can handle having her around'. She
looked once 
again at Willow who was slowing drinking the OJ she had made. Willow 
looked up and for a brief minute her green eyes met Sara's. Sara 
felt her stomach drop and her face felt like it was on fire, 
unfortantly Willow looked back at her lap before she saw the look in 
Sara eyes. Sara decided she was going to have to put off trying to 
figure out what she was feeling for a later date, because everyone 
was looking waiting for her to talk. 
" I am not going to beat around the bush here, I am assuming
you 
are all here to help and I expect that I will have everyone 
cooperation", Sara started and she looked directly at Buffy when
she 
said it. "First there are some things I want to know about you
all, 
Willow why am I here?
" Um, I, I um, I guess to help me", Willow said almost in a
whisper 
and settled a little further in her seat, like she was trying to get 
away. 
"Why do you want me to help you", Sara was not going to
make this 
easy. 
" Because I have to get better", Willow replied.
" Do you want me to help", Sara asked.
Buffy jumped from her seat, she didn't like the way this woman
was 
talking to her Willow " look she already answered that question
so 
lay off of her". 
Sara got up, walked around the bar and was standing toe to toe with 
Buffy, " do you want Willow to get better".
" What the hell kind of question is that, of course I want her
to 
get better" Buffy said not letting her gaze fall from Sara's
dark 
brown eyes, she'd be damned if she was going to be intimidated. 
"Good than sit down and let me do it, you understand that I am
the 
only one who can fix this", with that Sara walked back to her
seat 
behind the bar.
"Giles tell your slayer what will happen if I don't
succeed", Sara 
said looking at Giles.
" Buffy, it was all I could do to keep the council out of this,
the 
only reason they left it alone was that I had already called Sara. 
Buffy you know what the council will do if they get a hold of
her", 
Giles answered.
"Willow, do you want my help because you want to get better or 
because they want you to get better", Sara waves her hands at the 
gang sitting staring at Willow.
" Do I have a third choice of all of the above", Willow
asked giving 
a half smile?
` Damn she is cute' Sara and Buffy thought both at the same
time. 
" Ok I guess answer number three it is, than", Sara said
somewhat 
softer, " I just need to know if you are doing this for yourself, 
because it won't work if you do it for someone else. Have you
tried 
suicide yet"?
"Yes", Willow answered. 
"No", Buffy answered at the same time. " What, when,
were was I", 
Buffy said looking at Willow. 
"It was the night I asked you to call Giles, Buffy, I just
couldn't 
take it anymore. I thought my life was over, I know that you all had 
said that you had forgiven me but my mind just wouldn't let me 
believe it", Willow than told everyone about that night minus the 
stuff about Tara, she knew they weren't ready to hear that. 
Sara sat and listen to Willow tell the gang about her attempt to 
take her life and knew that Willow was leaving something out, but 
decided that it was better left until they were alone. She apparently 
didn't want them to know so she was going to trust that Willow
knew 
her friends enough to know what they ought to know. 
Sara also noticed that Buffy was becoming very upset the more 
Willow spoke. Sara got up and walked around the bar ready to 
intercept Buffy if she needed to. 
" What the hell were you thinking, Will", Buffy screamed,
" What 
would have happened if you had succeeded and Dawn had been the one to 
find you like that". 
"Buffy, that's just it I wasn't thinking, I?"
Willow started but 
Buffy interrupted before she could finish.
" I know your sorry, damnit, Willow, but Dawn has been through
to 
much already, having to find another mother figure dead in her house 
would have killed her. Having to find Tara was bad enough".
Sara had been silent; some of the things Buffy was saying needed to 
be said but when she mentioned Tara and saw the look Willow had on 
her face, Sara knew she had enough. Sara jumped between Buffy and 
Willow , facing Buffy, "Slayer, I have had enough of you. You
come 
here saying you want to help because you love her, need her, but from 
what I see?"
" Bitch, who the hell do you think you are telling me what I
think 
or what I want or don't want", Buffy said stepping closer.
" From what I see", Sara continued ignoring what Buffy had
said, " 
is someone who was screaming for help, needing someone to find her. 
Buffy, she's lost and the only one who could find her right now
is 
dead. This isn't about you or Dawn or any of you", Sara said
taking 
in the rest of the gang who had just been silently taking in the two 
arguing. " As far as me being a bitch, I am not here to win the
miss 
Mary Sunshine award, I am here to help get her better. If you want to 
beat up on anyone than here I am, go to it".
No one had notice the young red haired teenager who had been 
standing at the door until she yelled, " MOM"!