Re: response to Dan's FB

["Red Willow" <reddwillow@xxxxxxxxxxx>]

a few quick comments for you my dear Dan...

> From: danspector@xxxxxxxxx

> Tara's shocked and somewhat hurt (one of the crowd asks if she's okay)
> that B/W are doing it up against the wall of her girlfriends' apartment?

Actually... and this may be my poor writing... she's not hurt by it... she's 
shocked yes, who wouldn't be? shocked at their behavior, shocked b/c she's 
still getting over the fact that B/W are together. *shrug* she's not hurt by 
it though, it makes her laugh... there's kind of this thing going on here 
where both tara and willow think buffy hasn't had much fun in her past 
sexual history... its not very clear, i know... but she was with riley! 
(and we won't mention spike... buffy staked him good) willow mentions buffy 
only doing it in riley's bed... and tara assumed buffy wasn't that 
adventurous....

her "partners" know she wants to get with Buffy and even though she's over 
Willow... over in a "you done me wrong and i can't ever be with you 
again... but i know in my heart you're a really good person so i want to 
keep our friendship" kind of way. Again i wasn't too clear on these points 
and i apologize. there's that lingering feeling for willow combined with 
feelings for buffy that lead her friends to assume she's upset. but we know 
how tara is... 'you have to be with the one you love.' oh she wants 
buffy... but she can accept the facts.


> Gee, Tara, then imagine how Willow would have felt if you had taken away
> the one thing Willow had in her life, if everytime Willow came back to
> the very house she lived in, she had to realize that her housemate and
> best friend (and longtime secret love) had chosen you, her ex, over her.
> Talk about exes invading each other's personal space?that would have
> been a hundred times worse than Willow scraping up against your
> lust-bunny's apartment wall.

HA! did i tell you i was laughing my ass off reading this? well i was.. 
haha!
yup... if you dislike her its understandeable... i'm writing her pretty 
selfish... in TSIB, she talks about how she wishes she could be more like 
Casey and Claire... not always be such a good girl.. be more bold, 
outspoken.. etc... we're seeing glimpses of her 'its time for me' 
attitude... and i'll admit its not that pretty... but i don't necessarily 
mean for her to come across as such a.... bitch.

> So in other words, Tara, that Buffy liaison you're hoping for wouldn't
> just be your saying "I'm sorry, Willow; you know I'll always care for
> you, but we both have to move on. And Buffy's good for me; I'm just
> sorry if it hurts you." No, rather what you'd be saying was "God, I'm
> so glad we broke up! I like Buffy much more than I ever liked you, you
> loser! And we go to all these amazing orgies, instead of that vanilla
> crap you made me yawn through. Face facts, geek?I'm so sexy that even
> your so-called 'best friend' likes me better than she likes you. Worm."
> (Dialogue courtesy of the Cordelia Chase Academy of Quality Bitchery.

ROTFLMFAO!!! *shaking my head* i don't even know what to say...

> Tara's simultaneous martyr complex and her complete on-going disrespect
> for Willow's feelings (and her complete dismissal of the W/T
> relationship) are truly setting my teeth on edge, I have to say.

maybe she's having trouble... she's being the old goody good tara while 
wanting to be that vixen everyone knows she really is... plus, and maybe 
i should write this scene to kind of make it all clear... this is how i 
picture tara right now.....

"you fucking bitch" tara screams, turning on willow, her fists balled into 
white rocks. "i can't believe you'd do that to me? playing with my memory? 
(la la la) i used to think you were the world... you raped my mind how could 
i ever be with you again???"
"i'm sorry..." willow says in a tiny, mouselike voice.
"oh geeze, i'm sorry willow, i didn't mean to yell so much..."
"no, it's okay. you're angry."
"yeah but.. oh look, you're all teary eyed..."

Buffy walks in...

"hey guys, what's up?"
"n-n-nothing..." willow wipes the tears from her eyes.
"oh god! (love of my life i want you naked in my bed you sexy thing whom 
i've loved for six long torturous years!) you're crying!" buffy rushes to 
willow's side.
"Oh! of course!" tara screams, throwing up her arms. "what about ME?? don't 
i get any lovin?"

two sets of eyes glare at her.

"oh.. gosh, sorry guys, i didn't mean that. i'll go now."
end

see... she's so torn between being pissed at everything that's happened and 
just wanting to have fun, to let herself go and not be someone's bitch... 
and then there's her big heart and her need to be good.. and somewhere in 
the wiring she gets it all mixed up.... i think they could have really done 
some cool stuff with her if ME hadn't KILLED HER DEAD! grr.

and i'm not willow bashing... she's my favorite character, and i love her to 
death.. but come on.. she fucked up big time. i've watched 'all the way' at 
least 10 times (because i generally have no life and watch every episode 
about that much) and i scream "willow don't do it!" everytime she picks up 
that damn flower!
and then there's tabula rasa and it just pains me to watch it... can i admit 
i cried the first 3 times?? (oh of course i hid it very well all with the 
*cough cough* i need a beer type way of avoiding my gf's ridicule for being 
such a wuss... me and emotions do not play nice together.)

> Which is not to say that this fic isn't well-written and hightly
> erotic?after all, who knows, maybe you want me to be disliking Tara
> so. (I certainly don't need much provocation for that, I admit.)

thanks.... well i don't want to give anything away... but i believe it gets 
better, and hopefully you'll be pleasantly surprised... relieved... or maybe 
just feel the need for another rant.. *shrug*

> wondering if this means that he should run out and buy himself a size 0
> slip-top and some stylish-yet-affordable boots

don't think i'll comment...
however... if this whole email doesn't make any sense let me know and i'll 
properly assume the position to be punted about the field...
RW




"What is a poet? An unhappy person who conceals profound
anguish in his heart but whose lips are so formed that
as sighs and cries pass over them they sound like
beautiful music"
-Soren Kierkegaard

Willow: Oh Buffy, you really need to have every square inch of your ass 
kicked.
Buffy: Then show me what you got, and I'll show you what a Slayer really is.

Memento Mori. Remember that you must die.


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