Re: FIC: The World Has Teeth 1/?

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The world has teeth, but love has arms...to hold, hug, caress, help 
up and join together. What a great story! Yeah, got the warm 
fuzzies. If only S7 scripts would follow your lead... Please, 
please,please go on.

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--- In buffywantswillow@y..., "xenarip13" <xenarip13@y...> wrote:
> Title: The world has teeth
> Author: Bynx
> Email: xenarip13@y...
> Spoilers: some for the new season
> Rating: unsure yet..depends on where it goes
> Disclaimers: Joss owns I borrow and make no money.
> Warnings: I am just on a binge here lately and not sure what is 
> going to come out.
> 
> 
> The World Has Teeth
> 
> Buffy, 
> 
> I'm sitting here. I felt it and it scared me so I am writing to 
> you. I told Giles the world has teeth and it does. I am trying to 
> think of what to say. I would ask you, but I am afraid I wouldn't 
> get an answer. I am still powerful. I guess it is just in me 
now. 
> People, even this powerful coven, are afraid of me. I'm afraid of 
> me. I sit here and none of that matters as much to me as you being 
> afraid of me. Are you? I know you were afraid, but was it of me? 
> If you were or are, I understand. You shouldn't deny it, because I 
> could feel the world even you..especially you. How do I say I'm 
> sorry to you? How could it ever be enough? Two words...they don't 
> convey..coudln't show you how much I feel. I need you to forgive 
me, 
> but how do I ask you for that? How can I? What right do I have? 
I 
> miss you. Hmmm..three words..words will never express or be able 
to 
> make you understand all that I have done and my guilt. You said 
good 
> bye to me. You actually came to see me off, but I could still 
sense 
> your fear and your pain. I told Giles I only want to be Willow 
> again. He says I am still her, but will you still see Willow when 
> you look at me? Oh, the world has teeth..sharp teeth and they are 
> chewing me. I'm thousands of miles away from the hell mouth, but I 
> can feel it trying to swallow you and it chews me up along with the 
> guilt. Guilt..one word doesn't cover all I have done and I don't 
> just mean recently. Yes, I tried to kill all of you, tried to end 
> the world, flayed Warren alive and I am guilty..but I've done more 
> and perhaps worse. I led an innocent, loving woman to her grave as 
> surely as if I pulled the trigger that fired the bullet which 
killed 
> her. You'll say I didn't, but you don't know. I have so much to 
ask 
> forgiveness for. I loved her. I truly did. I can't put her name 
> here. I no longer have that right. I hope she forgives me where 
she 
> is. She knew all along, but was still content to love me and 
always 
> be second. She told me once.."How could I not know love? It's the 
> way you look at her..in the way you help her, and you just had to 
> have her back..I know you love her, but I also know you choose to 
be 
> here loving me..it's okay. I understand." She told me that and 
> loved me anyway inpite of the fact taht she had to share my heart. 
> What a generous, loving soul she was, but you know that. She was 
> there for you when I wasn't..couldn't be. You're more confused now 
> maybe? Well, she knew that you were my true love and she accepted 
> that. I have loved you from the beginning practically. I don't 
> remember not loving you. I didn't deserve her, none of us did and 
> she was killed. I could have..no..I should have let her go, but I 
> didn't and now she's gone. Do you think she will forgive me? She 
> probably already has. Will you? Can you? I tell you I love 
> you..always have and only after I try to everyone, even you. Oh 
yes, 
> the world has teeth and they are razor sharp. I want to be Willow 
> with no power, no shame, no guilt, but that will never be. I want 
to 
> see you look at me and feel that you are still my best friend. I 
> fear, especially given my full confession, that will never be. 
What 
> more should I say? Anything? Did you even want to hear from me? 
> Probably not. Giles is so wonderful and Xander..well, we know he 
> saved us all don't we. However, he is still just Xander. He loves 
> me even though I don't deserve it. Dawn hugged me good bye..she's 
so 
> grown up. How did I miss that? You, though, are who matters. I 
> don't try as hard as they want me to here. They know that, can 
sense 
> it. Giles does too.He confronted me, but at the time I avoided 
> answering. I know he knows now. He wants to bring me home. He 
says 
> if I can feel the hellmouthy danger than there is a reason. So, 
I'm 
> writing this becuase I won't come if you say no. I give you the 
> power. I don't want it..one word..Power..You can say no and I'll 
> stay away forever, but if you want I'll beg. I would do anything, 
> but how could you possibly forgive me?
> 
> Yours, 
> Willow
> 
> 
> 
> It had been a couple of weeks since she had sent that letter. She 
> sits in her room as slowly there is a knock and it opens revealing 
> Giles.
> 
> "She received your letter today."
> 
> What did she say to you?" Willow doesn't look at up waiting for 
her 
> punishment.
> 
> "Here, Willow. It's for you." Giles hands her a cordless phone.
> 
> "Hello?" Willow whispers.
> 
> "Willow?"
> 
> "B-buffy?" her hands begin to tremble.
> 
> "I.." the slayer clears her throat, "I have one word for you 
Willow, 
> and you will always be Willow to me. The one word is an answer to 
> your final question of your letter..it's love..I love you..I need 
you 
> here, Wills..come home. You are always forgiven..we'll work 
> together..I love you..come home."
> 
> Willow lets loose a heart wrenching sob at Buffy's forgiving tone. 
> She shakily hands the phone to Giles unable to say another word. 
She 
> sobs out her relief. She knows she doesn't deserve it, but she's 
> been forgiven.
> 
> "Willow?!" Comes The slayer's voice.
> 
> "Buffy?"
> 
> "Giles, is she alright?!" she panics.
> 
> "Yes,..yes, she's fine..she is over joyed I believe." Giles voice 
> begins to crack with emotion.
> 
> "Bring her home to us, Giles..home to me..I..we..need her...if 
she's 
> able.." 
> 
> "We'll leave tonight. It will be hard, but we'll be there for 
> her..so glad you called Buffy..she needs..well..you."
> 
> "She's right, Giles..the world has teeth and it has been eating me 
> alive without her..see you both tomorrow..tell her.." Buffy's 
voice 
> breaks.
> 
> "you love her..I will. Good night, Buffy."
> 
> TBC...I may have an epic on my hands here..what do you think?