FIC: Wild one 12/?

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Author: Jen D
Disclaimer: I don't own just like it.
Rating: G-R and all points between mostly language and violence
Pairing: Willow/ Buffy
Spoilers: I guess all of the shows this is A/U but some of it might 
come up.
Summery: A/U A different first season, different Willow.
Author notes: I am still working on Learning to live. Let me know if 
you think.



Buffy rolled over and threw the alarm clock across the room. It 
shattered into pieces as it made contact with the wall. `I don't 
wanna get up yet', Buffy thought and then bolted straight up when she 
remembered the plans that she had for tonight. Jenny had promised to 
get Giles out of the library by 5, so that she would have time to set 
everything up. Buffy thought back to her conversation from the day 
before, Jenny had been very helpful, even helping her pick out the 
music. `I know what I want and I plan on getting it', Buffy smirked 
and jumped out of bed. Buffy found the perfect outfit and got dressed 
and walked down to the kitchen. Joyce Summers looked up from her 
paper in surprise at seeing her daughter up and dressed so 
early, "Wow you look great this morning, who is the lucky guy today"? 
Buffy's smile faded and she sat down next to her mother, "Mom, I 
think I need to talk to you and I have no idea what you are going to 
say. Hell I don't even know what I am going to say but I know that I 
can't keep this from you. I kept my being the slayer a secret from 
you and I really don't want to have to lie to you about this. I hope 
you can understand. The last thing I want is for you to reject me and 
hate me."
"Honey, you know you can tell me anything and will deal with it. I 
don't want you to keep secrets from me. I love you and I could never 
reject or hate you."
"Ok, well it like this, I have been having feelings for someone and I 
am really confused or at least I was until I had a talk yesterday 
with Jenny". Joyce sat quietly, listening to her daughter. 
"Mom, I-I um I think I might be um", Buffy stumbled not being able to 
find the words to tell her mother what she was feeling. Joyce watched 
her daughter struggling to talk, "Buffy"
"No mom, I need to say this out loud. I have never felt this way 
about anyone before. I- my stomach gets all queasy just being in the 
same room with them. I don't even know if they feel the same way", 
Buffy wiped a tear away, "I mean they've had a bad life and I just 
want to make it better. I-mom I think I'm in love with Willow. I'm 
scared you're going to hate me" All the tears Buffy had been holding 
back since she had started talking came flooding down her face. Joyce 
seeing the fear and pain in Buffy eyes pulled her into a hug and held 
her until the tears stopped, "Buffy, I love you and nothing is going 
to change that. I can't tell you not to have feelings for another 
girl and I don't plan on trying. I just want you to know that being 
gay is not a easy lifestyle to have but after hearing all the stuff I 
heard this weekend, I think you can handle just about anything life 
throws at you. I'm shocked and I may need some time to get used to it 
but I will never stop loving you. I just want you to be happy. I'm 
worried that you may be setting yourself up for a fall, from what I 
saw and from what you have told me she is a pretty messed up kid."
"She is but I know there is a lot of good in her too. I see the way 
she looks at Xander and he told me about all the times she has taken 
care of him when he couldn't. She has gone out every night for the 
last two years and risked her life to save people, not because she is 
the slayer like me. She chooses to do it. She doesn't have my healing 
abilities or strength but she kicked my ass yesterday, when we Giles 
took me to Angel's to train. Her strength comes from within; she just 
needs someone she can trust, someone to love her. I know she has a 
problem with drugs and alcohol, I don't plan on ignoring it but I 
think I can help." Joyce looked at her daughter knowing that if she 
was determined to help she would support her, she also knew that if 
she tried to push her away from Willow that she would just go behind 
her back, "Alright I just want you to be careful and let me help." 
The smile that had been on Buffy's face when she had come down 
returned and she filled her mom in on her plans for Willow that 
night. 



Buffy headed for the bathroom outside of the library hoping to 
find Willow there. She paused at the door, smelling the smoke she 
smiled and walked in. Willow was sitting on the sink and looked 
up, "Hey if I didn't know any better I would think you come in here 
just to see me".
Buffy walked over and stood so that she was standing between Willow's 
knees " I did". Buffy took the cigarette from Willow's hand and put 
it out. She ran her fingers through the red heads hair and pulled her 
into a long slow kiss, "Meet me in the library at 6 tonight". Buffy 
turned around and walked out the door, this time leaving Willow open 
mouthed and stunned.