FIC: Giving it away.

["mike" <mcronin24@xxxxxxxxx>]

Title ? Giving it away.
By mike (mcronin24@xxxxxxxxx) 
SPOILERS: Season 7, Same time, Same place.
RATING: PG13. It is a Buffy/Willow fic 
DISCLAIMER: Buffy the Vampire Slayer and all characters belong to 
Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, and Fox. 
FEEDBACK: Constructive comments are encouraged but I reserve the 
right to debate. Debating doesn't mean I think you're wrong, it 
just means convince me. 
SUMMARY: (Buffy/Willow) Buffy learns a few things about Wicca.
Authors Notes: Just what I think should have happened instead of 
fade to black.

"I got so much strength, I'm giving it away."

"Are you sure?"

"Will it help?"

"Much."

"Good. "

I reached out my hands, palms up. Her fingers slid smoothly into 
mine. Warm? silky? alive, as our hands found that comfortable 
position and our fingers gently grasped. Her green eyes sparkled as 
she smiled oh so warmly at me, like the sun on a clear July 
morning. Her eyes closed and her face relaxed as she entered her 
well practiced meditation. I wasn't a stranger to meditation 
myself, so I knew the process to slide into that mental realm where 
focusing became almost effortless. Action followed thought as I 
drifted into the warm tingle of her hands. I opened myself, 
unconditionally trusting her and our bond. I drifted onto a warm 
sea of Willow. Soft, vibrant green alternating with waves of soft 
warm red flowed around and within me. The green caressed my skin 
with care, the red wrapped around my heart with the gentleness of a 
mothers caress. I immersed myself within her being. I opened a 
door within myself and willed golden energy like honey to flow into 
her green and red. All about, green and red grew brighter?, warmer 
with brilliant golden highlights. I could hear the melding? like 
the imagined sound of butterfly wings. The warmth caressed me like 
hot fudge and the energy lifted me like the flight of Thor's 
hammer. Eternity passed as every sense in my body was brought to 
and beyond anything experienced before. Light exploded across my 
vision and with a cry of ultimate release I felt my body arch and 
fall back onto the bed. All sensation slowly ebbing to warm 
comforting bliss as my hands separated from Willow's.

Loud rushing breaths began to slow as I wrapped my arms around 
myself, trying to hold onto these exquisite sensations. Slowly the 
real world began to impinge itself on my senses supplanting the 
divine with the mundane. The joy and comfort of heaven replaced 
with the harshness of life. I had been to heaven again and brought 
back to earthly existence once more. But this time?, this time it 
was ok. It was better than ok. I had the experience and now the 
delicious memory and it just made life better. 
 
I heard a sigh and then realized it was me. Slowly opening my eyes 
I focused in on the caring features of my best friend. With a 
classic winsome Willow smile I could tell she was patiently waiting 
for me to speak, or at least to look like I could utter a coherent 
word.

I felt my lips curve into a comfortable smile just before I parted 
my lips and delicately moistened my upper lip with my tongue. I 
then pressed my lips together to spread the warm moisture as I 
prepared for my first words.

"Hi, you feeling any better?

"Much, thanks to you. When you give it away, you really give it 
away." The genuine warmth and feeling in her words and face brought 
a feeling warmth to the middle of my chest that was indescribable.

"Well I couldn't have given that much away because I feel like I've 
been to heaven. So I'm pretty sure I screwed up and took instead of 
giving."

"Ahh Buffy, have you forgotten so soon? What you give out, you get 
back three fold."

"I thought that was just for bad stuff."

"Nope, if you give out good, you get back good three fold."

"So I didn't screw it up?"

"No Buffy. You did wonderful and I am all better for it."

"So that's why I feel like I just had the best sex of my life."

"Well, when you are rewarded for an unselfish act, it's usually what 
you need."

"I'm not complaining, but I can't believe there isn't something I 
needed more than a mind blowing orgasm."

Willow giggled, blushed then quickly composed herself.

"Think back on the experience; was it sexual gratification you 
received or something else where the physical release may have just 
been a by-product?"

I looked at Willow curiously. She knew something but wasn't 
telling. She wanted me to figure it out. She wanted me to say it.  
But what did she want me to say. I closed my eyes and brought the 
recent memory back. Replayed it slowly, letting the feeling flow 
through me again. I knew, and I smiled. Opening my eyes I 
responded softly.

"Love. I felt loved. Completely and unconditionally."

I look intensely into Willow's eyes and continued. "The love was 
from you."

I felt warm tears form in the corners of my eyes. The memory and 
realization were so intense I couldn't speak anymore.

"Yes Buffy, you felt my love for you. The connection we shared with 
your unselfish act prevented me from hiding from you my true 
feelings."

I felt the truth in her words and saw the love in her eyes. I 
reached my hand up to gently caress her cheek. Her eyes fluttered 
closed as she leaned into my palm.

"Then it's only fair that you now feel mine."

I leaned up and gently brought our lips together putting all my 
newly released love into a lovers caress.