Fic: A Fresh Start B/W 1/?

["Ida" <angel_v7@xxxxxxxxxxxx>]

Here's a new fic I have started working on. I have it hosted up at 
my new site, but for anyone who hasn't caught it yet, I will post it 
here too.

Title: A Fresh Start
Rating: PG - NC17
Author: angel_v7 : angel_v7@xxxxxxxxxxxx
Disclaimer: Joss owns the characters I just like to play with them a 
little
Spoilers: Season 7 through to the end of the season and beyond
Pairing: Buffy and Willow of course!
Distribution: #buffy-willow http://wiffy.cjb.net
Feedback: Yes Please!

Chapter 1

I'm lying on a strange bed and I feel so alone. I have been alone 
for so long, but right now I don't think I have ever felt any more 
physically alone in my entire life. I can't stop thinking about the 
events that have brought me to this place?..

BUFFY: I-I don't understand this. For 7 years, I've kept us safe by 
doing this- exactly this, making the hard decisions. And now, what- 
suddenly you're all acting like you can't trust me?

GILES: Didn't you say to me today you can't trust us? Maybe there's 
something there that should be addressed.

BUFFY: Is that why you sent Spike away, to ambush me?

GILES: Oh, come on. 

RONA: You know what? I am sick of your deal with this Spike guy. 
This isn't about him. This is about you. You're being reckless.

BUFFY: What?

RONA: You are! I don't even know you, and I can tell! You are so 
obsessed with beating Caleb, you are willing to jump into any plan 
without thinking.

BUFFY: That's not what I'm doing.

KENNEDY: Well, that's how it feels to us. People are dying.

WILLOW: Kennedy...

KENNEDY: Why are you always standing up for her?

WILLOW: I'm not.

BUFFY: What do you mean, you're not?

WILLOW: With everything that's happened, I- I'm worried about your 
judgment.

Snapping out of my memories I can't stop thinking about Willow. The 
one person that I can depend on is worried about my judgment. I 
can't leave things like this. I guess I've always taken it for 
granted that she would be on my side, no matter what. I need to get 
my Willow back. Hmm. My Willow? When did I start thinking of her 
as mine? I think I always have loved her, I was just too chicken to 
do anything about it, and how does one just come out and admit that 
they are in love with their best friend. I know she likes girls, 
she's had two girlfriends, and I'm the one that is stopping me from 
having Willow. Yes, I have always loved her, but so many things 
kept getting in the way.

Most recently Kennedy, What does Willow see in her anyway? I don't 
even see anything that they have in common, well apart from the 
whole liking girl's thing. Though I don't think that should weigh 
too heavy on my chances, if I would step up and admit my feelings.  
I'm thinking Kennedy just fought for what she wanted, and in the end 
that paid off. Well that can't be too difficult. I'm sure I could 
do that, but, I don't want to hurt Willow. She seems to be happy 
right now. I don't know if I could do that to her. I have already 
caused her so much pain. Besides I don't even know if Willow cares 
about me in more than a friendly sort of way.

Buffy closed her eyes and drifted off into a dream like state. She 
didn't even notice Willow standing in the doorway staring at her 
close friend.

End part 1