Buffy The Vampire Slayer-True Love 3/4 B/W T/W NC 17 Overall

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Author's name/pen name: bw
E-mail: blackcoffeeblues138@xxxxxxxxx
Title: True Love Chapter 3/4
Summary: Buffy falls out of grace with the popular
crowd, will she fall back into the arms of her former
lover Willow?
Pairings-Buffy/Willow Willow/Tara
Spoilers: This is an AU fic but let us say this takes
place in an s2 atmosphere 
Archiving: Please ask before doing it, but I am sure I
will say yes. Also, if you have a list or know of a
list I should post this on please email me
Rating: NC-17 Overall
Feedback: of course, please email me privately. I
make a point of replying to each email I get
Author's Notes: 
Disclaimer: Joss, Mutant Enemy and uh&Fox?? Own
BTVS&.is that why its on fx? I am just borrowing it
for a little while to play with some things I have
wanted to do for a few years.

One warning-there are mentions of self-mutilation and
suicide in this chapter, so be safe.


Willow ate her breakfast as she sped down the highway
south bound towards to her destination. Amy had
decided they should meet at the bookstore near the
local mall; it would be quiet in the morning. They
could sit and talk, enjoying themselves. A million
thoughts ran through her head as she pulled onto her
exit.  So much had happened in such a short time and
soon it would be all over, for better or worse. In the
past few days since their trip to the mall things had
been productive, Buffy was being quietly "fixed".
Everything that happened just raised more thoughts and
questions in her head though. 

When Willow returned home tonight, Buffy would be back
in her arms if all goes well. There of course, was a
chance she would reject her, but she pushed those
thoughts out of her mind immediately.

Tara had made an exceptional point to her the other
morning that true love comes from the heart, not from
magick. Her slave girl had slowly been starting to
regain some of her free will lately. Willow had tired
of the mindless obedience she had received before, so
she had spoken to Amy about slowly deprogramming her. 

*
"Eww I know right? This so came without any warning!
Apparently, she dumped her boyfriend and then someone
saw her heading out to the parking lot with the dyke
like twenty minutes later. It's fucking gay, what did
we ever do to her to make her want to go back to her?"

Cordelia Chase had been away a few days as school
ended so she had only heard the bad news now.
Immediately getting on the phone with her best friend
Anya, Cordelia was pissed the fuck off and it showed
as she fumed around her room. Buffy had dumped her
boyfriend William, the hottest guy in the school for
that freak Willow whatever her name is. Willow was
Cordys least favorite person, always going against
the crowds and doing what she wanted. All of this went
right out of Cordys mind though as she had an
epiphany right there in her room.

"So, um, Anya, William is single I guess now right?"

*
"Im worried about you"

Amy frowned at the girl across from her as she stared
down into her coffee. Her and Willow had just sat down
for coffee and were discussing the younger girl's
reacquisition of her girlfriend.

"Worried? Why?" Willow said as she took a sip of her
coffee.

Amy looked around suddenly, squinting at an elderly
couple playing chess "Yes, I am worried about you.
This is all very sudden. There must be many different
emotions going through you right now."

Willow looked down at the cup in front of her for a
moment before responding "I...I-I don't know...most of
me knows that what I am doing is for her own good, but
I don't know, part of me thinks its fucked up you
know? I love her so much still, even after everything
she did. When I saw her crying in the locker room I
just felt that...." She trailed off.

Before she could finish Amy finished her sentence for
her-

"You could save her. You could play Goddess and make
everything right." Amy stared at the chessboard in
front of her on the table "It is so completely fucked
up. Thankfully, I don't really have any of that
nagging conscience stuff you are going through, I got
over that fast."

She stopped to smile at her friend and put her small
hands over Willows on the table "Eventually, with
guidance, you will too dear. People are stupid and
useless for the most part, but you don't have to be."
Willow squeezed her hand over Amy's gently "Thank you.
I just want us both to be happy."

"As you should" Amy suddenly paused and looked
outside, squinting at something "That's pretty much
why I called you here today. I wanted to make sure, in
person, that you were ok. However, I have one caveat
before we leave here. If you release her and she falls
into your arms, I am the happiest person for the two
of you." She paused for a moment to let that sink in
"But if she doesn't, she has to be dealt with,
understand?"

Willow knew this was a statement of fact "of course"

*
Tara poked her head in to see Buffy calming down
finally. She let out a sigh and closed the door again.
Tara could remember what it was like for her when
Willow had first taken her. It was very intense and if
she had not of had Willow there to completely take
over; she would not have made it. Her Mistress had
wanted to keep Buffy under complete trance for a few
weeks, slowly weaning her back to her "normal" self,
but Tara had the foresight to realize that would not
be right. As much as she hated Buffy and everything
back stabbing cunts like her stood for, Willow loved
her and wanted everything the way they used to be and
for that to happen Buffy would have to choose it out
of her own free will.

It was not lost on her the irony of letting the girl
you had just deprogrammed out of societies
reprogramming of getting to choose whether to be your
Mistresses lover, but she thought for the betterment
of her Mistress it was for the best that she spoke up.


Willow had been very accepting and thankful for her
opinion. It had not been lost on Tara that slowly she
had been getting back some of her free will recently.
She walked across her room and sat back down on the
bed, her pale left hand reaching the remote to un
pause "Collection I", sliding back against her pillows
to continue reading. As she flipped the pages, she
mused to herself about recent events. Being her recent
gradual deprogramming and Buffy's sudden appearance,
was this planned? Was Willow looking to get rid of
her?

She put her book down and switched CD's, sitting up
completely; Tara brought her knees up to her chin,
hugging herself tight.

Would that make sense even? She readjusted her
position on the bed. Sighing heavily she continued to
think, "This whole thought process is highly
illogical. It must have been sheer coincidence."

Tara was breathing very heavily at this point. All of
this was so sudden. Her world was being destroyed
right in front of her, and even a few months before it
would not have bothered her so much but now it did.
She curled up tight, took a deep breathe, and started
to cry. For the first time in a very long time, Tara
felt real emotions, not those programmed into her or
those cause by said programming. She was so fucking in
love and suddenly it felt like she was insignificant
and it hurt and she did not want to feel any of this
pain.

Epilogue

Her hand grabbed at the button for the shower and she
looked up at the water started coming out. It did not
matter if it was hot or cold, all that mattered was it
was a safe place to hide. She hated to do it but she
could not let anyone see her like this. All of these
new emotions were flooding through her as she stripped
off her clothes and got into the shower, letting the
water hit her in the face and immerse her. After a few
minutes, Tara sat down, curled up in a ball again, and
cried her eyes out, her makeup running all over her
face and down her body. At this point she did not care
anymore, all of this needed to go away right now. Ten
minutes went by as she sat there curled up letting the
water soak her down. Looking up at the sky, she
reached for her razor and started to slice.

It was right at that moment she was free.



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