Fic: R,R&R Book II (4c/4) NC17 B/W/T

Chapter 4, still a little more.

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‘Wow! Oh... mmm... lips... warm... good...’ Dawn’s mind was reduced to monosyllabic thoughts as the object of her affections for the last several years fulfilled one of her many fantasies- giving Dawn her very first kiss.

Xander’s lips slid slightly away from hers for just a moment, then returned with short, nibbling kisses on her upper and lower lips.

‘Xander... oh God!’ Dawn thought as her world narrowed down to soft lips and warm breath. She was barely aware of her hands clutching tightly to his shoulders. His hands were more noticeable as one came to rest on the bare skin of her lower back, his fingertips just resting on the swell of her buttocks. The other hand was slowly moving up under her hair, blazing a hot trail along the flesh over her spine until it came to rest gently cupping the nape of her neck.

‘We can do this for the rest of my life...’ Dawn imagined, finally achieving some semblance of a coherent thought.

After a minute, Xander pulled away from her, but rested his forehead against hers, their noses rubbing just slightly together as he sighed heavily and whispered, “Dawn... God I’ve been thinking about doing that for the last week.”

Dawn laughed briefly and said, “I’ve been dreaming about doing that... well, for longer than I’ve technically been human, really.”

‘Uh oh,’ she worried at Xander’s answering laugh. ‘That was a little bit strained, I think.’

“Are you ok?” she tentatively asked.

He pulled back enough to meet her anxious gaze and said, “I... it’s just...”

‘No, please... don’t push me away. Not now... ’ she thought as her hands slid down his shoulders to just below his ribcage. “It’s just what?” she softly asked, her hands moving around his back as if unconsciously seeking to keep hold of him.

“Part of me is feeling like this has to be a dream,” he whispered intently.

‘That look!’ Dawn thought, her heart fluttering. ‘You make me melt when you look at me like that!’

“It’s not a dream,” she said, her arms tightening around him as she tried to reassure him, as well as herself.

He grinned as he continued, “Another part of me is expecting Buffy to walk in her any moment now and kick my ass.”

Dawn smiled back, saying, “I think the worst she’ll do is tease you mercilessly.”

“Oh, so same as usual then?” he asked jokingly.

“Yep, nothing new there,” she answered in kind.

They smiled silently at each other for a moment, but then their smiles fell.

“Please, oh please don’t run away from this, Xander!” Dawn thought, feeling her heart squeeze in her chest.

She didn’t realize she’d spoken aloud until he softly answered, “I’m... I’m not going to run away Dawn.”

Dawn felt her face grow warm.

“I... there’s just...” he stammered, seeming to be having difficulty putting his thoughts into words.

“It feels a little weird?” Dawn offered, even as she felt a pang of sadness at the possibility.

“Not so much weird...” he said, causing her chest to unclench a bit. “There’s just... it’s not going to be easy, Dawn.”

‘God, Xander! Your hands... are a little distracting!’ Her eyes slipped half shut at the sensations his softly stroking fingers were eliciting.

“N-not easy, how?” she muttered, trying to pay attention to what he was saying.

“The age thing... I get that you aren’t a little girl, Dawn... boy oh boy, I get it!” he said with a shuddering breath.

“But?” she interjected.

“I get it, and maybe even Buffy and your mom get it... but you’re still a freshman in high school!”

‘Mmm, not seeing point...’ she thought. ‘Feel hands, fingers... touching... Focus Dawn!’ she chastised herself.

“It’s just, if people... if teachers in your school were to find out that we...” Xander trailed off, his hands suddenly moving over her skin with more deliberation.

“That we...?” she breathed. Her own hands began to explore his back, moving down to his butt. ‘God, I’ve fantasized about your butt, Xander...’

His voice was soft and breathy as he responded, “That we were... together...”

The tips of Xander’s fingers dipped just barely under the waistband of her thong, grazing across the top of the cleft of her ass, and Dawn’s whole body trembled. ‘Oh God, these panties are so ruined!’ she thought as the heat flowed like a river through her body.

“Are we...?” she asked in a shivering sigh, “together?”

“I think... I shouldn’t want that... but I do,” he whispered, his eyes dropping almost as if in shame.

“Hey!” Dawn exclaimed. “If anyone found out that we think we fight vampires and demons on a regular basis, we’d be in trouble too, but that doesn’t stop us from doing what we have to do.”

“Yeah, but that’s a little different...” Xander said halfheartedly.

“It is,” Dawn acknowledged softly. “The point’s still valid though; we shouldn’t let other people’s opinions tell us how to live, especially those who don’t have a clue what’s going on with anything, let alone us.”

“That’s easy to say, Dawn, but not so easy to do...” Xander remonstrated gently. “We have to be careful, people are a lot more likely to believe in me taking advantage of you, than they are vampires or demons.”

“Then we’ll be careful...” Dawn acknowledged. “Xander, I... this isn’t just a crush that I feel for you. And I’m not putting you up on a pedestal, I mean, you have faults like anyone else in the world...”

“Hey!” he protested with a grin.

Dawn chuckled. “Seriously, I like you a lot, Xander. I like being around you, I like talking with you about everyday stuff, I like how you always try to make everyone laugh, even when I can tell you aren’t really in a laughing mood yourself...”

She moved one hand around to his front, stroking up his chest until she was resting her hand on his neck.

Xander’s eyelids grew heavy with desire and his fingers continued their maddeningly light touches.

“I like watching TV with you... the way you always chastise the characters for doing dumb stuff... even if you do always hog the chips!” she said lightly, though her voice was deepening with desire.

“Hey, a man’s gotta protect his chips!” Xander protested, but his voice clearly indicated that his mind was less focused on his declaration, and more on the sexy girl in his arms.

“I love the feel of your hands on my skin,” Dawn blurted as her hormones took over her efforts to communicate her feelings. “And your lips...”

He moved in, silencing her mouth with his own.

Her eyes slipped shut, and her arms tightened around him as she succumbed to the feel of his lips. ‘Oh, tongue... tongue is nice!’ she thought as she was gently encouraged to open up to his probing kiss.

Xander’s tongue slowly explored her mouth, twining around her tongue laconically. Eventually she grew accustomed to the sensation and began her own tentative movements, actively participating instead of passively experiencing. Kissing instead of merely being kissed.

‘This is... wow, I totally get it!’ Dawn thought, feeling deep joy springing forth from inside her. ‘I figured it must be great, cause people really seem to enjoy it, but this... is incredible!’

her hands move to mirror his own, one of them moving up into his hair, combing through it to cradle the back of his head, and at the same time pull herself closer to him. Her other hand moved down to his butt. ‘Oh Xander!’ she moaned mentally as he gasped against her lips. ‘Nice, tight butt!’

She gasped right back as his hand moved over her own derrière, squeezing softly, and cupping her cheek. ‘Oh God! Oh God! Oh God! Xander! I so want you right now!’ she thought with a desperate whimper.

Both were panting hard when they broke off the kiss.

“Dawn...” Xander said with a strong exhale.

She had to take a couple breaths before she could even say his name in answer. “Xander?”

“I want us to be... together... but I need...” he panted out.

“Anything!” she interjected.

“I need for us... to go slow,” he finished his sentence.

“Go slow?” she tentatively asked.

“Yeah, I mean... with the physical stuff...” he said almost sheepishly. “I... I kinda jumped into the physical stuff too fast before... and then it was too late to try and build all the other things a relationship is supposed to have...”

Dawn moved her hands back to his sides, not letting go, but not pressing things either. “Xander, I...” she began with a slight note of disappointment in her voice.

“I don’t mean I want to not go,” he quickly interjected. “Just go slow.”

‘Well, that’s clear... like mud,’ Dawn thought ruefully.

“I... I guess I’m ok with that,” she said with some hesitancy. “But I’m not Anya or Faith, Xander. I’m not just looking for something physical, or something short term here...”

Xander smiled gently. “I get that, Dawn. I really do. And I don’t think of you that way... like Anya or Faith I mean.”

“Ok...” she said, not comprehending.

“I mean, I don’t know exactly what you planned, I’m not saying you just wanted to jump straight into bed or whatever...” he began explaining.

‘Well, I was kinda hoping...’ Dawn thought guiltily.

“But I’m not making that mistake with you Dawn,” he continued. “Like I said, this won’t be easy... you and me... but I’m definitely interested in trying to make it work.”

That brought a happy smile to her face. “Ok, I can go slow...” she said.

“Good,” Xander replied with a smile of his own.

‘Hmm, I notice that going slow apparently doesn’t include letting go of my butt...’ Dawn moved her hand back up to his hair, and in a sultry voice said, “Just so I’m clear on this... The kissing thing- is that allowed under the ‘going slow’ policy?”

Xander’s eyes widened for a heartbeat, then slipped half-shut as he answered, “Oh yeah. Kissing is definitely part of the policy.”

“Good!” Dawn whispered, pulling his head back down to meet her own.

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‘Aww, they’re adorable!’ Tara thought as she and the other three girls quietly entered the mansion to see Dawn and Xander sitting on the couch, gently making out.

Dawn was sitting in Xander’s lap- sideways, not straddling. Her back was to the room’s entrance, and Tara could see one of Xander’s hands supporting her lower back and he was combing his fingers through the hair at the nape of her neck with the other.

“What the hell is going on here!” Buffy suddenly exclaimed.

Dawn and Xander reacted like someone had shot a gun, leaping apart and up from the couch with looks of shock. ‘That was mean! Poor Xander looks scared to death,’ Tara thought, humor warring with sympathy. ‘Uh oh, Dawn looks a lot more mad than startled.’

Buffy and Willow and Faith began cracking up, while Tara restrained herself to a smile.

“Oh I got you so good!” Buffy crowed, still laughing.

“Damn, Xman, I thought you were gonna wet yourself!” Faith joined in on the ribbing.

Willow was still laughing too hard to say anything as she wiped tears from her eyes.

Xander collapsed onto the couch, one hand clutching at his chest, the other gripping the arm of the couch. “Oh God!” he panted. “Bad Slayer...Not nice...”

Tara watched with trepidation as Dawn approached Buffy. ‘Goddess, if I didn’t know Buffy was the Slayer, I’d actually be worried about her right at this moment!’ she thought, seeing the look of determination on the younger Summers’ face.

Dawn stepped well into Buffy’s personal space, using her slight, but noticeable height advantage to look down at her older sister as she said, “Not funny Buffy Ann Summers.”

Buffy stopped laughing and looked up at her sister with a confused, but slightly haughty _expression_. ‘Well, she certainly doesn’t look intimidated...’ Tara thought. ‘I wonder what Dawn is planning...’

“You’d better behave yourself around my boyfriend, *big* sis...” Dawn said, emphasizing the irony of the term.

“Or what?” Buffy asked, obviously not taking her sister seriously.

“Or... the next time we have a family dinner, I’m gonna tell the story of the homecoming carrot incident...” Dawn said with a smile that screamed ‘checkmate’.

‘Homecoming carrot incident?’ Tara thought with a frown. ‘What could... oh my goddess!’ her train of thought was derailed by the look of abject horror on Buffy’s face.

“How!?” Buffy gasped, all color draining from her features.

“I know everything... I see everything...” Dawn said with a winning smile. She shot a glance at Xander and winked, adding, “I’m Dawn the spy!”

Xander actually managed a dry chuckle at that, despite apparently still trying to catch his breath.

“That sounds like a story I’d like to hear,” Faith said with a laugh.

Buffy’s venomous look didn’t seem to faze the dark-haired Slayer.

‘I wonder what could be so bad?’ Tara thought, mystified at Buffy’s reaction. ‘Of course, I’m going to have to find out... later. Oohh! Maybe I should paddle it out of her, after all it’s not nice to keep secrets from Mistress Tara!’ she thought as warmth filled her loins.

Dawn looked at Faith and said, “I dunno, you might get lucky. I’m not sure Buffy can play nice or not...”

“But Dawnie!” Buffy whined. “My best friend is gonna be dating my little...” she broke off at the look from Dawn.

‘Oops!’ Tara thought, seeing the slit-eyed glare Dawn shot her sister.

“...younger sister,” Buffy quickly changed her terminology. “How can I possibly not tease him?”

Dawn’s glare softened and she said, “I expect you to tease him, Buffy. But that was just mean, and there will be no being mean to my boyfriend allowed.”

“Aww, that’s so sweet!” Willow gushed.

‘Poor Xander,’ Tara thought with a laugh as she watched the man in question lean forward and put his face into his hands, shaking his head and groaning.

“You all realize I’m sitting right here, right? I can actually feel what little masculinity I have left slipping away...” he complained.

A female chorus of, “Aww, poor Xander” sounded out, causing him to groan louder and mutter, “I’m a dead man...”

Dawn walked over to him and sat down, putting her arm around him and consoling him. “Don’t worry Xan... I bet I can come up with a way for you to... reestablish your masculinity...”

Tara laughed even harder, and was joined by both Willow and Faith as Buffy reacted to Dawn’s comment.

“No!” She exclaimed sharply, covering her ears with her hands and chanting , “No, no, no, no, no!” She dropped one hand to point firmly at the couple, stating, “There will be no masculinity reestablishment or discussion thereof while Buffy is in within hearing distance!”

Dawn took Xander’s hand and stood up, saying, “Come on, lets go dance! This is starting to sound like some kind of lame sitcom... thing.”

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